Trying makes it worse

[IsAnybodyThere]

Hi Eternal flower.i admit that I am completely new here. However some things in your Post reached me.

I can tell we are different, but there are points that touch. I have been going to my female doctor for about 25 years. We know each other almost too well. I am also a person who tends to hide behind humour. This means I often come out without having been serious enough. This is because as soon as I go in, Kim and I are verbal sparring and throwing insults in a jokey way. 

  Your comment about your Doctor joking is similar to my situation.

I think this is probably a silly question, but can you change to a more senior doctor?

Personally I also have the issue that I can only relate to females. In life not just doctors.

Have you tried going to a female doctor?

I had from time to time been going to a female Psychologist.. Unfortunately, late last year she passed away.. I have had big trouble finding a replacement. My Doctor took me seriously for once. She changed my antidepressants then increased the dose. (Not that they seem to be working).  She also put me onto Gateway. This is a Mental Health Care plan thing, which is free.. You just need a Plan from your Doctor, which may be an issue for you.

  I have only had one call so far, but she was very nice, understanding, kind and caring.. The sessions last an hour which was what I had with my psychologist.

  I too am looking for someone to converse with. I am not a 'Joiner' and have zero friends. Mainly that is because my home situation.

I would love to hear from you, but I leave that up to you..

Regards; IsThereAnybodyThere 

[EternalFlower]

Hi @IsAnybodyThere  I wanted to reply to you and say hi,

 Thanks for your suggestions, but I didn't really feel the advice to go a senior Dr applies to me and I'm not needing suggestions for new services as I find that overwhelming.

I'm sorry, I don't mean to discourage. Congrats on your first post

[IsAnybodyThere]

You are quite right. I stepped over the line a bit. Struggling with everything right now. I don't think the higher strength antidepressants my GP put me on are not working at all.

[EternalFlower]

Hi all, 

I'm still not sure about tagging, I'll tag ppl and if it bothers or I do it wrong,,,,lmk! 

Hi everyone

I'm feeling pretty triggered lately and struggling with safety 

Have been happy to call Lifeline which helped really, and was able to make a safety plan which involved support from a friend. It is a good feeling to ask for help and get it,

I know in the moment or asking I feel pretty anxious that I could be too much and be turned away

I saw my Dr this morning again, and after wards spent a lot of time huddled up on the couch,

I felt really down and like my situation was heavy and stuck.

Tomorrow I am going to give my friend my medication as a safety plan, so I do not have excess. I should have done it today but tomorrow it's organised now.

How do ppl cope with triggers ? It feels like drowning.

@wellwellwellnez @tyme @jazz @TAB @NatureLover @Scream58 @maddison 

[Scream58]

@EternalFlower 

Good to hear you have a safety plan in place. Not good that we are both awake at 2am.

Triggers ... sometimes I can distract myself by keeping busy with something else. Other times I can't cope with them at all. Depends on the trigger and what else has been happening.  If I'm already down and a trigger happens I spiral out of control too fast. 

I'm currently working with my therapist to try and learn how to short circuit the spiral. 

Take care.

[TAB]

Hi @EternalFlower that's good that you saw people and have a plan.
I hope things get better for you. Im not sure I have triggers. Sometimes I am more depressed or anxious or both and sometimes I get used to it and don't think its out of ordinary until look back afterwards

[EternalFlower]

Hi @TAB it's not nice to be up all night, not my preference either...

I get more depressed and anxious around interactions with family, I don't have an easy time with my parents or sisters.

I slept through the morning today and went out for a coffee now so I'm a bit anxious 

Got lots of missed calls in the morning after not replying to a friend's text

Not sure how easy the weekend will be, I didn't manage to give my friend my medication or to do much 

[TAB]

well friend was probably just checking to see if you were okay @EternalFlower  ?

am going away tomorrow so wont be on here as much for a while. am driving interstate for funeral

[wellwellwellnez]

Well that's a very sweet interaction between you two @EternalFlower and @IsAnybodyThere .

I also think a lot about the archetypal significance of our teams. I also also get the overhaul overwhelmed factor.

Borrowing and expanding a bit from the "7 habits of highly effective people" book from back in the day. There's a time to get a new saw, a time to sharpen the one you have and another other time to keep on sawing.

[EternalFlower]

Hi @TAB hope u are OK and sorry for Ur loss..

My friend has been checking on me and tonight we had a chat which was helpful.

I live alone and don't have so much support or family or anything so it was a nice change to get some support.