slept well last night,but early this morning alot of pondering ,questioning asking myself wether Im always just running from myself or most things in general,am I avoiding,what does being strong mean to me? have I let my own family influence me too much on matters that I want sole control over? quilt tripping myself ,regret about my actions,overthinking,am safe just meaning actions in relationships,I have a nice new car but that doesnt change the feeling of being alone,what do I think being strong means? it means standing alone,Im an adult I can handle this ect,which brings me to thinking I should just be honest with myself and maybe a little more honest in a one on one conversation with someone close to me,truth be told Im burying my worries during this time of change,and even with good changes have still felt a sense of sadness for some reason,theres also a feeling of wanting to let go of everything old in my life and start new ,strange ,am safe ,material possessions bring some sense of happyness but they never fill the root cause issue underneath hmmm what to do about that ,talk things out as best I can,try to gain some clarity for where Im at and where things are at in general
